It’s time. I’m about 5 months too late to call this a “new year, new me” moment, but what the hell? I’m turning over new leaves left and right.

It was about 60 days ago that I finally decided to take a giant swan dive off the corporate ladder. It only took me until my hair was falling out, my friends didn’t recognize me, I hadn’t had a date that scored better than take out Chinese and a Lifetime movie in a year, I dreaded getting up in the morning but couldn’t go to sleep at night and my 2-year-old niece told me I work too much. So maybe the decision was past due, but at least I got there.

The hardest part of all of this was finally just taking the plunge. So much anxiety and stress goes into coming to the conclusion to take control of your own destiny. What if I fail? What if I lose my home? Good God, what if I have to move into my parent’s basement in Sun City??? As I contemplated what to do, I received a lot of advice along the lines of, “Don’t quit until you have something else. You have a good stable job in a bad economy.” And you know, that advice was certainly sound. But the fact of the matter is, I had no interest in “something else”. It was time to see what I could do on my own. It was a burning desire that no one else could feel and a decision no one else could make for me.

I looked around, realized there was no one that would be affected by my poor decisions but me, and hell… I will always have Sun City if things fall apart. Plunge I did. And you know what? The hardest part is over. Once you step off the edge, there is nothing to do but do your best to make it work.

So I have spent the last few months a little bit stressed out, working my tail off and wondering whether I’ll make next months mortgage payment. But I once again have a full head of gorgeous hair, my friends welcomed me back to their lives with open arms, my family stands behind me and shines with pride… and dammit, I’m happy.

So, what I am trying to say is that I’m motivated to write again. For the first time in almost 2 years. You can probably guess that most of my posts will follow along this entrepreneurial journey I have embarked on, but for those of you who were with me on the last ride, don’t worry, you’ll still get a good healthy dose of bad date tales. That’s a leaf I probably haven’t turned over yet…

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